trigger warning for multiple mentions of suicide and stalking
do not use this page as an excuse to harass them or block them or anything, harassing them or just being mean towards them doesnt make you a good person and it wont make me like you. come to your own conclusions about what i write in here. im not going to add proof or specific examples of what theyve done because i dont want this to act as a callout because i just dont care to do that. i made this page because i dont want to have to explain myself to anyone asking why i dont like people who support my abuser in a community that we're both part of
i dont believe they are an abuser in general. i dont believe they are a danger to anyone theyre friends with. they are however an abuser to me, im extremely uncomfortable with anyone who supports them interacting with me. we were in a relationship in around 2024 in which i believe i was taken advantage of due to my emotional state during that time period, i had an active suicide risk and had just gotten out of a psychiatric hospital when i had met them. i dont care to spare the details of what happened during our relationship, it's nothing that needs to go here. they would lie to me during our relationship and make fun of me to other people without me knowing. they led me on and cut me off multiple times. after supposedly cutting me off for the last time they came back many times to berate me until i did what they wanted, which was "going away". they told an actively suicidal person, myself, that they wanted me to go away and that just seeing me was ruining their life. i deactivated and hid for at least a month. eventually i found out that they were lying to me during our relationship and i blocked them everywhere and reactivated my account. they continued to stalk me and make attempts to contact me after i told them to never contact me again. they lied about me to people, and they actively stalked me and my friendships. eventually sometime in autumn of 2024 i deactivated everywhere because i was so terrified of them and i was so tired of them stalking me and i just didnt want them to see me ever again. i know it's dramatic but they've caused me the worst feelings ive ever felt in my entire life. sure, i have gone through worse trauma, worse abuse, but they were the first person i had ever felt truly safe with and they completely broke that trust. if they are reading this, just know i wont accept any apology and i dont want to talk about this and im not taking down this page until i feel safe enough to. i want you to leave me alone. but im really tired of being scared, and i miss the community that i was in. i dont want to create drama. i just want to draw book and pillow
aaand they attempted contact again after finding out about this page despite the fact we have eachother blocked and they would have to be checking my profile a lot to even know that i made it! interesting! im not going to message you i dont know what makes you think i will, do you think im a masochist or something, yeah sure ill message someone who would lie to me everytime we tried to "talk it through". you need to get help. seriously. anyways try contacting me again and ill just make an actual callout instead. i have all of the evidence i need already. i did change the first paragraph slightly though, because admittedly i was just paranoid. "i dont understand what i did" maybe get someone to help you with that because i dont want to talk to you ever again. leave me alone
if i have blocked you because you were following them and you no longer are please write me on straw page and include your username